I think I am going to go back in my past entries and correct any typos... just the thought of them lying there in my past entries is driving me nuts. When I think of making errors, typos or whatever I stress and start calling myself stupid. I really do believe that I am stupid for making typos. I shouldn't, but I do...

I drove again today. My Grandma was stressing,but I expected her to do that. I still think the cars are trying to run me over and I am having major trouble staying in the center of my lane. That's just my paranoia coming out of me. Yes, I am paranoid...

I tried watching Dragonfly last night and I had to stop simply because I had this innate fear in me that someone was going to come after me. The exact same thing happens when I watch the forensic shows at night. I think someone is going to break in and hurt me. I am so scared of that to happen and I am only scared of it when I watch the shows, though, occasionally I do freak out otherwise. I have too many problems with me, I worry myself to death over it.

Eventually I hope to get up some extra pages on here. 100 things about me, quizzes, poetry, etc. I just have to find the energy to do that. I have been so tired lately, I just want to block out the pain that is inside of me.

--I really want to lay down and cry right now...can I please?

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