A serious sorta secret. But I'll tell you it anyways...

I'm addicted. To cutting. Yesssss...

I did it again tonight. When I took a shower. And I was calm. Relaxed when I was doing it. Only a little frustrated because it was so hard to get a good cut with the stupid razor. But I did it... yes....

It helped. The sting... and seeing the blood, start to drip down my leg... it calmed me down... yes it did.

But it's my little secret... yes, my little secret that I don't want anyone else knowing... no, you'll know once you read this. But I must not tell my counselor... she'll try to take away my little secret and I don't want that... no I don't want that at all.

smokin' / hot