September 23, 2003 + 10:20 a.m.
I want familiarity and companionship
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When you want familiarity. When you want to speak with old friends. And talk. Talk about how you feel. And when you can't. When you are unable to talk with them. What do you do?

I sit here, my mind goes, my body goes, everything goes... Everyone I know is so far away, or can't talk right now for reasons I don't know but can only guess.

And that makes me feel so alone. No, I don't want to make new friends and immediately bombard them with my problems. I want my old friends. I want the people I know, love and have finally come to trust. I want to talk with them. I want to laugh with them. I want to PRETEND that everything is ok, and that everything will be all right. Even though I know that right now, everything ISN'T ok.

I yearn for companionship... I yearn for someone to talk with and chat with... someone I know...

I yearn for deep conversations where I can relate to people... I yearn for that as well. To talk with friends and discover things I didn't know about them before... I just want companionship. That's all.... that's all...

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