October 12, 2003 + 8:22 p.m.
I'm so much worse....
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You know, I'm just sitting here. So blank, so out of it. Tired, yet... I don't know what is going on with me. I'm just staring at the screen, not paying attention to anything at all. It sucks. It really does. Because I think something is happening to me that isn't good. That shouldn't happen. God, I want to cry. My mind is completely and utterly gone. GONE GONE GONE...... I'm so scared... I can't focus... I can't focus....

Shit, I'm so scared... so alone... so lost... and I want to release this shit that's bottling up inside of me... I just want to FUCKIN' DIE!!!!!!

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