October 13, 2003 + 9:39 a.m.
worse... very worse...
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My depression is getting worse. Is it because I am off the meds? But the meds didn't really FEEL like they were working. I was still depressed. But it's getting worse. My depression. I mean, I've got tiny, little, not very deep cuts on my wrist. I've NEVER cut my wrist before. Damn. I'm screwed, but what to do? I have no idea. Should I start the pills again? Until they are gone? But I don't think they are working. I am still so tired. I'm not going to class today. But I promise... I MUST go to class the rest of the week. I HAVE to. I have no energy to. I'm just staring, I'm blank. My mind is completely blank. Damn this shit to hell!

I need the hell out of my hellhole.

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