It's kinda like I'm in a hole, a cage, and I can't get out of it. There's no place for me to climb out. No key for me to unlock myself. I'm trapped. Yeah, that's what I am. I'm trapped.

I'm trapped in a vicious cycle, where I feel good then feel bad. I'm trapped in a world of counselors and medications that rule my life. I'm already feeling like I have to depend on these things to make me feel better. And- this crap isn't even working yet.

But I'm trapped. It's like I can't get out. And I WANT to get out. I WANT to get away from these feelings I am having. What happens, this is what happens.... when my mind goes blank and I shut things out. I'm doing it now. My mind is going blank. I'm just writing from the back of my head right now.

I hurt. Damn. I hurt.

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