I wish there was an alternative to cutting. Boy, I wish it a lot. But, it's getting more addicting as the time passes, and I'm doing it with more frequency then ever before. It gives me energy. It makes me be able to dance, walk around, do my work (haha, well, or ATTEMPT to, we won't go to actually finishing it), but man, it makes me feel so much better. Even if it only lasts for a few hours, but then when my energy starts to go and I become sluggish- it's back to reaching for the blade for another cut.

Just one more cut, don't you see, that'll boost me through the rest of the day. Just one more. I'm screwed. Yeah, I know, but why stop something that makes me feel better? Why stop that?

Stupid addictions. Stupid stupid addictions.

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